Fantasies

I was right about English being a complete waste of time. The prof spent half an hour going over how to write a bibliography. I mean if people can't do that by now they shouldn't be in university. I had bought a book of Kakuro puzzles just for this. I spent the time doing those instead. For those of you who don't know what a Kakuro is, it's basically a crossword puzzles with numbers instead of words. It's a game of logic and math, perfect for me.

The rest of the period we spent on Truth and Bright Water so I continued finishing my Kakuro. It was a tough one too, very frustrating. I kind of got bored with it, well more frustrated really, so I thought I should at least pretend to be paying attention. I couldn't help but notice his physique. He really isn't bad looking. He reminds me of Ross from Friends. A little nerdy but still somehow hot. I noticed he had long long fingers and I couldn't help but wonder how those would feel inside me. He is married though so I probably won't find out. Although, maybe that shouldn't stop me. :P

Playlist: None :(

Lies, True Lies and Alibis

So Mike's gone. We had a nice last night. I got a little sad, and I think he did too. Sex isn't so great when you're sad. He was really sweet, though, and wanted to make sure we kept in touch. He also promised to send me the odd dirty email, which is a nice bonus. I promised to do the same.

I also patched up things with Kong, which is probably the best thing that happened tonight. We've agreed to just be friends and I think that's the best course of action. I still haven't told Mike about the lie, although Mike and Kong did meet briefly today. Mike was told that Kong and I are just friends. I feel awful about lying but Kong and I have a complicated history. Plus, Mike's gone anyway. And, OK, I know that's a crap excuse.

I realized a little while ago that Kong and I really are better friends than we ever were a couple. I loved him, and still do, but I realized that love is not an eros but rather a filia. I told him I still loved him and he told me he would never stop loving me. So I don't know where that fits in this puzzle. He promised to let me meet his new girlfriend and I promised not to look too sexy when I meet her. I know I'm going to have some problems keeping that promise. I'm naturally competitive, even if Kong is just a friend now. But I will be civil. Kong was nice enough to Mike this afternoon so I'm going to show him the same courtesy. I'm not promising that I'll like her though. I've always gotten along better with men, whether they're trying to get into my pants or not. Women tend to look at me and feel intimidated. I'm not at all trying to blow my own horn or anything. That's just how it is. He also said she's not as pretty as me which makes me feel nice but makes me wonder too. He's pretty good-looking and we made a pretty nice couple. I wonder how they look together. And Kong I know you're going to read this eventually, because I gave you the web address. So don't take any of this the wrong way.

I had some fun playing online games with Will tonight after Mike left. I kicked his butt at Sudoku and this weird big monster game he insisted we play. It involved a crazy clown and a rat cleverly named Ratputin.

I didn't even crack open one book today. Oh well, it's Thursday today and Friday is just English and Math. Easy-peasy. In English my professor is making us read this frightfully boring novel by Thomas King titled Truth and Bright Water. I didn't even read it and on Wednesday my group was given the topic of the Landfill to discuss. When I got the sheet of paper my mind went blank. Although I had Wikipediaed, it there was no mention of a landfill. My group wasn't too sure what there was to discuss either. It was pretty much a waste of an hour. Tomorrow will likely be similar. English has always been one of my favorite subjects. This professor has made it pretty crappy.

I tend to write and write when I get started so this entry is a bit longer than I intended. My apologies for burdening you with my drivelling nonsense.

Playlist: No Good by Kate Voegele, October by Bethany Joy Lenz, Halo by Bethany Joy Lenz, Collide by Howie Day, You and Me by Lifehouse, Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's,

King Kong vs Mike the Mighty

So Kong asked to see me today. That's not his real name by the way. It's Mike. But seeing as how I've already mentioned a different Mike I didn't want things to get confusing. Some people call him Kong anyway. When Mike (the real Mike) asked me what I was doing I lied and said I was at a staff meeting. So Mike if you are reading this I'm very very sorry. I know I told you I hate lying and I really do. I just didn't know how to explain everything to you.

I wasn't very happy about going to see Kong. It hadn't ended very smoothly. I had initially broken up with him but later realized that I missed him a lot. I tried to get him back but he wasn't very pleasant about it. I suppose I can't blame him. So, naturally, it was a shock when he wanted to see me today. And I wasn't exactly pleasant to him when we met up. Getting over him was hard to do and I hadn't wanted to do it. I said some things along the lines of "You had no right to call me today" and "Seeing you doesn't make anything better." Makes me sounds like a bitch doesn't it?

I just have to figure out how to tell Mike. We've only seen each other a few times and he's moving back to his hometown tomorrow. We're not serious or anything but it still sucks. We have a lot of fun together and the sex is amazing.

Adrian is my actual current boyfriend. He doesn't mind me having sex with Mike, which is very cool of him. I'm glad he doesn't feel threatened because I love him more than anything in this world. Plus lately we haven't really been having sex because he thinks I'm a distraction from studying. It is midterm time after all. I suppose I purposely try to seduce him too, by wearing close to nothing and threatening to make him hard all the time. I told Mike about this and he thinks Adrian should be thanking the gods for giving him a girlfriend who is perpetually horny.

First Ever Post

So I've never really had a blog before. I suppose this is very much like a journal, except it's out there for the world to see and judge. Well that's ok with me. Judge away folks. Aruzia Melnik isn't my real name, by the way, although it is a pretty cool name. Maybe when I have a daughter someday I'll name her Aruzia.

Right now I'm blogging when I really should be reading the chapter on feminism in my Political Science text book. Mike is waiting to hang out with me but I told him to wait a bit while I take a little while to study. Yesterday I spent a few hours with him and didn't really get anything done.

So I guess that's it for my first entry. Not such a great start I guess. Oh well.