Lies, True Lies and Alibis

So Mike's gone. We had a nice last night. I got a little sad, and I think he did too. Sex isn't so great when you're sad. He was really sweet, though, and wanted to make sure we kept in touch. He also promised to send me the odd dirty email, which is a nice bonus. I promised to do the same.

I also patched up things with Kong, which is probably the best thing that happened tonight. We've agreed to just be friends and I think that's the best course of action. I still haven't told Mike about the lie, although Mike and Kong did meet briefly today. Mike was told that Kong and I are just friends. I feel awful about lying but Kong and I have a complicated history. Plus, Mike's gone anyway. And, OK, I know that's a crap excuse.

I realized a little while ago that Kong and I really are better friends than we ever were a couple. I loved him, and still do, but I realized that love is not an eros but rather a filia. I told him I still loved him and he told me he would never stop loving me. So I don't know where that fits in this puzzle. He promised to let me meet his new girlfriend and I promised not to look too sexy when I meet her. I know I'm going to have some problems keeping that promise. I'm naturally competitive, even if Kong is just a friend now. But I will be civil. Kong was nice enough to Mike this afternoon so I'm going to show him the same courtesy. I'm not promising that I'll like her though. I've always gotten along better with men, whether they're trying to get into my pants or not. Women tend to look at me and feel intimidated. I'm not at all trying to blow my own horn or anything. That's just how it is. He also said she's not as pretty as me which makes me feel nice but makes me wonder too. He's pretty good-looking and we made a pretty nice couple. I wonder how they look together. And Kong I know you're going to read this eventually, because I gave you the web address. So don't take any of this the wrong way.

I had some fun playing online games with Will tonight after Mike left. I kicked his butt at Sudoku and this weird big monster game he insisted we play. It involved a crazy clown and a rat cleverly named Ratputin.

I didn't even crack open one book today. Oh well, it's Thursday today and Friday is just English and Math. Easy-peasy. In English my professor is making us read this frightfully boring novel by Thomas King titled Truth and Bright Water. I didn't even read it and on Wednesday my group was given the topic of the Landfill to discuss. When I got the sheet of paper my mind went blank. Although I had Wikipediaed, it there was no mention of a landfill. My group wasn't too sure what there was to discuss either. It was pretty much a waste of an hour. Tomorrow will likely be similar. English has always been one of my favorite subjects. This professor has made it pretty crappy.

I tend to write and write when I get started so this entry is a bit longer than I intended. My apologies for burdening you with my drivelling nonsense.

Playlist: No Good by Kate Voegele, October by Bethany Joy Lenz, Halo by Bethany Joy Lenz, Collide by Howie Day, You and Me by Lifehouse, Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's,